I am somewhat of a hypocrite for writing this, because I find myself at a weird middle ground. When I am in a drunk argument with someone, my go to response is, "I don't care," but at the same time, I'm the person who will scream and cry whether she's happy or sad. I will walk away from you in an argument to avoid an altercation, but I will also corner you until I get all the answers I'm looking for.

My emotions can go either way. They can either not exist, or they can come full throttle. I don't know black and white in this category.

We live in a generation that is scared to show emotion because they are scared of being called "crazy." I guess that is why I shut myself out sometimes rather than tell someone how I really feel. But in the depth of my mind I feel like that shouldn't even be an issue. Because isn't it better to be crazy, to be passionate, to feel and feel deeply, than to be numb? I'd rather feel happiness and joy, but also anger and sadness than feel nothing.

It's better to scream at your significant other than to act like nothing is wrong at all and never talk about it. It's better to cry into a pillow and throw a glass at the wall when your heart is broken then to shut yourself out altogether. Picking up the broken pieces is easier when they aren't built up. It's better to fight with your friend when they piss you off than ignore it and let it blow up another day.

I'll tell you one thing. Emotions are always bound to come out. If they don't come out in little bits at a time, they come out all together in one huge explosion.

I can tell you from experience. I hold almost all of my emotions in. Once a year, almost like clockwork, I breakdown. I don't breakdown over anything groundbreaking, let me get that straight. I breakdown over something that is so minuscule it shouldn't matter at all. I'll walk into my room and see a pile of clothing on my bed and breakdown. My dog won't cuddle with me and I'll breakdown. I'll check my fridge for something to eat, and if I'm not in the mood for anything, I'll breakdown.

Emotions make us human. And they are beautiful. It's a beautiful thing to be able to experience all of these feelings, even though it doesn't seem like it at the time. I understand that you don't think mascara stains underneath your eyeballs is beautiful. You don't think that cursing someone out when they deserve it is attractive. But literally, who the fuck cares? Although it might not feel good at the time, it'll feel a million times better when it's over.

I love raw honesty.

I love when people are drunk off of a glass of wine and they start firing all of their opinions, wanted or unwanted. I love when people are drunk off of several glasses of wine and are crying about all that is wrong in their lives. I love emotion. I love when people scream. I love uncontainable smiles. I love laughter that makes people hold onto their stomachs while tears stream down their cheeks.

People don't want to be considered weak. So they put up a front. They act almighty. Invincible. But we aren't invincible. We were made to have feelings and we weren't made to just have feelings when we have a little bit of alcohol in us.

So please, cry if your heart hurts. Cry if you lose someone. Cry if you are laughing too hard. Scream if you are angry at someone. Scream song lyrics in the car if you are happy. Laugh when something is really, really funny.

Stop acting like you're too cool to feel something.