Springtime is often referred to as a time of “new beginnings.”
Just because the flowers start to bloom and there is nice weather again, I still find it to be a random title. Change is always in the air, bringing us to new places in our lives and sometimes away from the old.
Whilst sitting in a room I once knew so well, I couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable by the fact there was nothing more than surface level topics to talk about. Clothes, boys and school. I know that these things are fun to talk about, but with some people that you shared a bond and grew up with, you think you should be able to go into deeper conversations.
It is the person that I used to tell how I was feeling even if I was slightly embarrassed by saying it aloud for the first time. We helped each other through whatever was happening and always wished the best for another. So, as I sit in the room, with her comforter half on my legs, not cold but not cozy, I wonder when everything from the minuscule to the drastic had changed.
All of a sudden, time has passed, and you're sitting in the room with a wall that was built to separate a life of friendship that you once shared. Even though you find it to be sad, you can’t say that you didn’t see the bricks starting to form upwards.
Both sides tried at times to remove the bricks one by one, but somehow it was just never enough.
It’s sad to lose a friendship that once meant so much to each party, but as I get older, I learn that sometimes people grow apart. It isn’t necessarily anyone’s fault, it just happens in a way that neither of you can change or talk about. Sometimes there is no happy ending or an end-all takeaway that makes the experience worth it.
Sometimes there is just the past.
I don’t want to cheapen the text and say something that we have all heard before that I have learned from the relationships that I was blessed to have, even if they might no longer be.
I just want to say that if you had the opportunity to have any kind of relationship where you both know you have it good, and I don’t think that I need to define what a “good” relationship is, cherish it while it’s here.
