Had it been a regular Spring Break with no pandemic hanging over all of us, I would be outside, practicing my photography, maybe playing ukulele in Central Park, or practicing my editing and art skills. I would be relieving myself of the stress of school and taking that time to heal and relax.
Except I'm not.
Living in a strict Asian household in a dangerous neighborhood where crackheads and crimes were the norm, my parents would never let me outside. It would take me 2-3 business days before I can ask to go out, and even then my curfew was a strict 4-8 PM, depending on when the sun sets, of course. I'm used to staying indoors without seeing my friends and having minimal social interaction for long periods of time. I'm used to sleeping in until 4-5 PM, because there was no point in me waking up with the day because I wouldn't be able to escape my cage anyway.
"This quarantine wouldn't be so bad."
My initial thoughts have never been so wrong. I'm at my wit's end. I'm unproductive. I've been sleeping in. I've wasted my days sleeping. I don't eat. I don't exercise. I haven't touched my camera. My piano is collecting dust. My whole regular morning routine is off and I'm withering away. Here are the 5 mistakes I've made during this COVID-19 quarantine.
1. Cut my own bangs
I've never regretted this so much. I officially look like a 12-year-old girl going through her emo-scene rawr XD phase, and I know because I've been there before. I want my hair back. I can never go outside looking like the atrocity I've become.
2. Download and install "League of Legends"
All my friends play this cursed game. I've been playing continuously for two weeks, even if I'm a sore loser since I never get annoyed from losing. My mom complains about me staying up so late talking to a screen. I sleep as the sun rises and wake up to the sunset. I've become the representative e-girl in all my friend groups.
3. Forget school is a thing that exists
I haven't touched my homework. I haven't looked up the scholarly articles for the lit review of my research class. I haven't contacted my group mates about our final project. I have a midterm next week, and I have yet to study. All of my work is piling up, and yet, here I am in blissful awareness. I simply wish I could be ignorant to what is going on, but I knowingly still avoid all my responsibilities.
4. Earn a strange obsession with eating bread, specifically croutons
My parents count as essential personnel, which means they're still working and always working. Therefore, my brother and I have to cook meals regularly for ourselves. The problem is, we both have irregular and unhealthy sleep schedules. We don't eat regularly, and we become too lazy to leave meat and fish out to defrost and marinade. Meal prepping doesn't work either because we can't portion properly. Our solution? Fried rice, eggs, spam, salads, and bread. Lots of bread. All the croutons we've been using for salad have become my 3-4 AM snack.
5. Start watching K-dramas again
I have reignited my love for Korean dramas out of my boredom to do something more unproductive and required less thinking than osu! or "League." I have been binging them religiously and now have impossibly high standards again paired with wishing to get back in a relationship. This is not me. I don't want a relationship. I want to graduate first. (However, I wouldn't mind if a certain person tagged me in memes or texted me back more often).
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bonfire friends
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My Cheerleader
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womans transformation to happiness and love
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future life together of adventures
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