Just because I’m two months away from being twenty doesn’t mean I don’t know who I want to spend my life with.

Most people’s opinions when it comes to marriage don’t reflect what they’ve done. When it comes to elders warning me on making sure I know what I want, I heed their warnings and carry on with my day. When it comes to a person in their 40’s-50’s trying to make my decision on wether or not I’m sure I want to spend my life with my boyfriend, I tend to get defensive. I appreciate the advice, but trying to make me seem like I’m incompetent is where I draw the line. Yes I’m almost twenty and I want to spend my life with my best friend and goofball of a boyfriend. So when a person who got married at 18 tries to tell me I’m not able to know what I want, I stop listening.

It’s not trying to be rude or disrespectful of elders, but everyone says “when you know, you know” and I know. There’s no one else who will give me hugs even though he just ripped the blanket off of me because I just wanted to sleep and now I’m angry because I’m fully awake and shivering. There’s no one else who will take a train half an hour, in the complete opposite direction of the way they need to head, just to bring me a strawberries and crème frappe. There’s no one else who will take their time to force feed me Gatorade and Hot Pockets because I’m sick and refuse to eat for myself. There’s no one else who will look at me like I’m the only girl in the world but laugh at me two minutes later because I pour garlic powder on my pizza. There’s no one else who will drive me just to go see a moose, because I live on a sand dune and have never seen a moose. There’s no one else who will spend their sleeping hours on the phone with me because I’ve had the worst shift of my life and all I can do is cry.

So I appreciate the advice, but please also note that I’ve put more than enough time in to who I want to spend my life with. Yes, I’m only 19 for two more months, but I have found my soulmate and no one can take him away from me now. They’d have to pry the love for him out of my cold emergency room tech hands before they could get him away from me.