While summer break is wonderful, the end of the school year also brings around something that I can't stand: goodbyes. I hate goodbyes, and I typically just don't do them. I know that's really awful of me because I should want to wish the graduating seniors good luck and cherish the opportunity to see them one more time, but I just can't do it. I would rather just skip out on that emotional roller coaster and remember people the way that they affected my life on ordinary days.

I can't say goodbye. I can't actually bring myself to meet up with a friend and give them a hug before they leave my life completely. I don't want my last memories with my graduating friends to be marked by ugly sobs. I haven't actually said goodbye to many people throughout my college career because I like to pretend that I will just see them again in a few months like everyone else, but that's not the case. The few times that I have said goodbye to a friend has been a miserable experience for me because I am an extremely emotional person, and I can't help but get wrapped up in my feelings when I know I'm not going to see someone every single day of my life anymore.

So, to all my friends that are graduating seniors, I'm terribly sorry that I'm an awful friend when the last week of the school year comes around. I'm sorry that I avoid the subject of goodbyes, and I'm sorry that I don't try to set something up where I can see you one last time. I know that I should, really, I do.

I hate goodbyes, and I will probably always want to avoid them like the plague, but I'm going to try to change. Classes are already over for the semester, and all we have left are finals, but I'm going to at least attempt to give goodbyes a chance. I don't want you to say goodbye to me though. I want you to tell me you'll just see me later because I can't accept the fact that you're leaving my life forever. I'll leave you with a cheesy "Wicked" quote because it seems fitting right now.

“I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led to those who help us most to grow
If we let them and we help them in return.”