Sometimes I’d really love for someone to try to be me for one day.
People joke around and think that it’s so easy to be someone else for a day, but if you jumped into someone’s head and had to handle all the things they have to handle, with all their mental blocks and physical problems?
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Could you imagine?
Yeah, I have a “small” course load.
Yeah, I have an okay job, some decent extracurricular activities, and really awesome friends.
And yup, I have a loving and supportive boyfriend.
But let’s take a look at the bigger picture for just a hot second:
I suffer from crippling migraines on a regular basis.
I have the obsessive need to be in control or I freak out, everything has to have a place and everyone needs to be on time.
I am literally the biggest clutz you’ll ever meet.
I’m almost always injured somehow or rocking a stain on a shirt.
I have struggled with my weight since I was a kid.
And I get moderate anxiety attacks pretty much as often as I get a paycheck.
And throwing me into a social setting that I know no one? Sends me into a spiraling pit of panic.
But yeah, you’re right, I don’t have it that bad.
I’m grateful to have a roof over my head, food in my stomach, and clean clothing most of the time. I'm grateful for my loving support system. And I'm even glad I have my pretty okay job and semi-decent education.
But I am literally petrified for the future.
Once May hits?
I have literally no idea where I will be, what I’ll be doing… none of it.
I don’t even know how I’ll pay my bills.
But please, try and live a day in my life. Maybe for Halloween, try being me. May the odds be every in your favor.
I love my life, and yes, I might complain about it. But I absolutely love my life, and the people in it.
But I’m willing to bet that most of the people who judge me and my life choices and people who are in similar situations would barely last 24 hours.
