Sometimes I wish I could go back. Back to when I was younger and carefree. Back to when I had no worries in the world. Back to when things were a lot easier on the other side of the story. Go back and redo things that could have been better. Prevent things from happening, with the knowledge I know today. I wish that things were as simple as they used to be. But we all know that we can’t go back.
Everyone wishes to change things in their past. Everyone wishes that nothing will ever go wrong in their life. Everyone wishes that they could be stress free, but that’s not the case. We can’t go back. We can’t undo things that we wish we could change. We can’t make things better. And things don’t always go our way. We have to live with our mistakes if we like it or not. We have to accept the fact that we can’t go back. We have to understand that everything happens for a reason.We have to know that every obstacle that we encounter in our lifetime is just a milestone that we have to pass.
Sometimes I wish I could go back. Say things I thought of a lot earlier. Tell someone how I really felt towards them. Go somewhere I could’ve gone instead of staying in. Ate that doughnut that I really wanted, went to the library to study for that test I had the next morning, or maybe even went to the gym when I told myself a million times I would go. Most of the time things are a lot easier said then done. People will tell you “oh, just forget about it already” or “you will end up not thinking about it tomorrow”. It is not easy to forget about all the things that have made a negative impact on your life, things that you wish you could change.
Sometimes I wish I could go back. Go back and tell the old me to be a little less harder on myself. Tell myself that I will soon outgrow the friends I have been arguing with. Remind myself that I have to worry less. I would tell my old self to stop caring about what I looked like on the outside because it is what is on the inside that really matters. I would tell myself to try something knew, and that it is okay to step outside of my comfort zone. I would be more spontaneous and not be afraid to be myself. I would make a better effort to keep in touch with my friends and family. I would remind myself to be more confident when I look in the mirror, and be more thankful that I have good health. I would stop rushing to be an adult. But most importantly, I wish I could go back and tell myself to not care about what other people think.
But we can’t go back. We can’t time travel. Things are never going to change, and that’s okay. I wish I could go back and tell myself all the things that I know today, but I can’t. If I went back to change anything, I wouldn’t be the person that I am today. I wouldn’t be the person that is stronger then they thought they were. I wouldn’t be the person who had been through and seen it all. I don’t want to go back. I made many mistakes. But I learned from them. I learned that you have to be at an all time low, just to see how much of a great potential you have. I am proud of the person that I am today, and I am proud of what I have been through. I am not going to change just because someone doesn’t like the way I am. I am not going to change the fact that I have done some pretty stupid things, because I mean, who hasn’t? We all learn from each other, and that’s the best way to do it. We learn as we grow that people and times change at a rapid speeds. Time is always ticking, and stops for no one.
Today I understand why everything happens for a reason. We live and we learn, and nothing is ever going to slow it down. I learned that people are always going to doubt you. Going to push you around. Going to tell you that you are not good enough. Everyone will put you down, just to boost themselves up. In the end the only person that matters is you. YOU. We can go back and try to change something from our past, or we can make a change today. Which one will you choose?
