Do you know what it's like...
To not be able to get out of bed?
To be sad all the time and not understand why?
To be someone you're not?
To put your feelings aside?
Do you know what it's like?
The doctor said I'm fine
No broken bones,
No diseases,
No illnesses
Nothing major
I'm fine
But I'm not
I'm not okay
But no one sees this
Because I smile
Smile
Always keep smiling
You have to keep smiling for them
For the fans
It's what they want, so
Smile
Sure, I've had a tough day
My grades are dropping
My friends are abandoning me
My parents are arguing
I guess it's no big deal, so I
Smile
I guess it's the new norm
I'm not eating
I'm not sleeping
I'm not feeling anything
Oh, I'm just being a teenager, so I'll just
Smile
I want to yell
Yell that it's not real
Yell that I'm suffering
Yell at the entire world
I want to yell, but I'll just
Smile
When should I stop smiling...
After I've appeased the masses?
After I've compromised myself for the hundredth time?
When is enough going to be enough?
My pain is real
I feel numb
I feel broken
I feel as if my heart is heavy
I feel that I need help
It's time to sit my parents down and have that heartfelt conversation
It's time to find friends that truly care about me
It's time to talk to someone about the way I feel
It's time to find a real reason to smile
I should do this
I can do this
I will do this
Next time you see me smiling
Just know that it's real
And know that I am here
