"So what are your plans for the future?"
"How is it that you are still single? You are so amazing; any guy would be lucky to have you!"
"And what do you plan on using your degree for?"
"How old are you? And you are still single?"
These are just a few of the awkward questions I get from nice, but slightly obtuse people. Usually, when someone asks me one of these questions or at least relatively similar, I heave a big inward sigh. I usually reply with something spiritual, such as "Oh you know, God hasn't brought the right guy into my life yet" or "I'm just waiting to see what God has for my career life."
But in any conversation where my unknown career path comes up or my perpetual singleness, it's hard to not be just a little annoyed. Now, I will always know that these sweet people only are asking because those two topics are a major part of life, but bringing them up just reminds me of the huge unknown in my life.
First, let's talk about the singleness. Am I single? Yes. Are there benefits of being single? Sure there are. Am I OK with being single? I guess. Do I want to be single for the rest of my life? Um, no. I'll admit, it would be great to have that special someone to call up when I'm having a bad day, someone who I can build a family with and someone to grow old together with. But I don't, and that's OK. I am content being single for the time being. Is it hard at times? Certainly, but being single at this point in my life is something I would rather be than in a relationship that wasn't going anywhere or one with the wrong person.
Now let's talk about being stuck. Whether I am stuck questioning my major or stuck trying to figure out how I will use my major in a career, it's just as frustrating for me as it is for the people I have to answer to. It's hard enough having to listen to people tell me I need to find a job that pays. Add that to having to tell people I don't completely know what I want to do for a career and it's enough to make me want to just start telling people I'm going into the circus business. I understand that at my age it's important to at least have an idea of what you want to do for a living, but that doesn't mean I need to be tied down to only one career direction.
But even though I am single and stuck, I am still singing. I am singing praises to God about how good He is to me, because even though being both single and stuck isn't ideal for me, I know Christ's suffering wasn't ideal for Him. God has plans that are so much bigger and better than any I could ever dream up. So why should I worry or lose sleep over my current circumstances? God has my future in His hands and I wouldn't have it any other way. Until the day I have my eureka moment, I'm going to take one day at a time, living it to the fullest and trusting God's timing instead of my own.