For two years now, I have been the only single girl in a group of coupled friends.

Which is not a bad thing at all, I have quite enjoyed it. Except when all the couples are fighting and you're just supposed to sit there and wait for it to end. Being single in this group means I get to be the fun one! I have no one to impress or to keep happy, so its easy for me to go out and have a good time instead of worrying whether or not my significant other is OK, or mad.

But being the only single girl in your group can also really suck.

Going on all these fun adventures with your couple friends and seeing the joys that they bring each other can make you feel left out and seriously alone.

Recently I went on a cabin trip with my friends for New Year's Eve. One single girl, seven couples. Going away with seven couples for the weekend kinda put into my eyes how lonely I was deep down.

Seeing everyone kiss at midnight and cuddle up on the couch made me want those moments as well. As happy as I am to see all my friends happy in their relationships, it was also hard because that's all I wanted.

Now I'm not the type of girl who needs a boyfriend. I honestly wouldn't know what to do if I had one, it's been so long. But the loneliness you feel when you see everyone around you so happy makes you start to rethink a few things.

So that's exactly what I did, but in a different way. I began to rethink all of the things that made me happy and all of the accomplishments I worked for to get where I am today.

I thought about all the things I've been through to become the person I am today, and how I did it all on my own. No boyfriend when getting my own place, no boyfriend when I got myself back into school, and no boyfriend when I got my raise at work.

All of that was me, and I honestly believe that it may have turned out differently if I did have a boyfriend.

I would have been focused on things that in the long run were not important. I would not change these two years for anything, and I see myself being the single girl in my coupled up group for a long time. I have so much more to achieve before I can let that special someone come in.

With these years I've learned my worth, and what I deserve in a partner. So I'm willing to wait for the one that shows me what I deserve. But I'm not ready to settle down just yet, because I'm only just beginning.