I am a very stubborn person. I guess you could say that I have “high standards,” but to me, I think they are all pretty reasonable. I can truthfully say that my dating life isn’t all that great.
It seems like the bad guys I want to keep around, and I push the good ones away. Unfortunately, sometimes the timing just isn’t that great to rush into a relationship or the guy I thought was good turns out to be bad. This cycle can be no more!
I’m sure all my friends are ready for me to finally date someone so they don’t have be dragged around town with all the shenanigans that I want to do. And I'm sure they are tired of hearing me say. "I want a boyfriend."
It is true; I want a boyfriend!
However, I will wait. I will wait for the right guy to come along to prove that all my prior failed attempts were worth failing. I want more than just a title. I want a true love.
I believe in the kind of love that doesn’t demand me to prove my worth and sit in anxiety. I crave a natural connection, where my soul is able to recognize a feeling of home in another. Something free-flowing, something simple. Something that allows me to be me without question.
I want to find a heart that will love me at my worst and arms that will hold me at my weakest. I trust that one day I am going to meet someone who invests in me and wholeheartedly cares. I’m going to meet someone who is attentive to my needs and wants. I am going to meet someone who is so clear and bold with their love for me. I am excited for that day.
I want to be with a man who loves the Lord. I want them to love God more than they love me. I want it so our relationship with God is the supernatural relationship that pours into us so we can pour into each other.
I am not perfect. I am flawed. I have made some awful mistakes in my lifetime. But God forgave me. The right man will love me for my mistakes because they made me a better person.
If I can love the wrong person so much, I can only imagine how much I can love the right one. I am trying to be careful to not confuse the wait for an answer from God with there being no answer from God. I will wait patiently on Him. He will answer me when He knows the time is right to answer.
I don’t want to go searching for someone. I don’t want to be left with swiping right or left or the dreadful poking option on Facebook. I sort of wish finding true love was like what I see in movies, but it's not and that's OK. I will wait for the right person to pursue me.
I will wait for someone to make an ordinary moment seem magical. I will wait for the kind of person who brings out the best in me and wants me to be a better person. I will wait for the person who will be my best friend. I will wait for the person who will drop everything to be with me at any time, no matter what the circumstances.
It takes a strong person to remain single in a world that is accustomed to settling with anything just to say they have something. Just because I am single doesn’t mean I am lonely; it just means I’m resting my heart until its ready to love again.
I know the right someone is out there. One day, God will send him my way. Until then, I'm single and waiting.
"Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices wit the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8