After a year of what seemed like was going to be forever, I experienced one of the biggest heartbreaks I have yet in my life. I couldn't go to work for over a week, get out of bed, go to class without tearing up in the middle of a lecture, or drive without my tears almost making it impossible for me to see.
I thought my life was over and had nothing good left in it. It's fascinating how love can lead one to believe that there's nothing left if your loved one leaves. What's even more interesting is that these feelings usually only lasts for a short amount of time.
What I realized is that I THOUGHT you broke me. You definitely hurt me, but you didn't break me with your Facebook Messenger text you used to break up with me. It just showed me the asshole you truly are that I was blind to for over a year.
After all of this, I would like to say "thank you." Thank you for thinking that you hurt and broke me. Thank you for not having the decency to end our relationship in person rather than on Facebook Messenger. Thank you for not only leaving me but giving me a second chance.
I thought something good had ended, but in reality, I was being given a second chance at the life and love I deserve. I was willing to sacrifice a lot for our love, and you made me realize that I need to put myself first. Because you broke up with me, I can now go to grad school anywhere I want to without feeling like I'm leaving you behind. I can accept an internship opportunity in Canada if I wanted to, move wherever I want, spend as much or as little time with other people as I want, etc.
Our relationship was toxic, and it was not meant for forever. I have accepted that, and I just hope you're ex that you got back together with three weeks after you erased your toxicity out of my life!
