What does it mean to be part of a sorority? Recently, I've been struggling to come up with an answer that truly reflects my current relationship status with my Greek organization.

I love you unconditionally.

You have given me a place to grow. You have given me lifelong friends. You have given me a family I can call my own.

Thank you. You will never know how much that means to me.

It may be senioritis. It may be new leadership. Or it may be my lack of involvement as I enter into my final semester being part of this organization.

You have shown me tough love. No harm in that. However, the execution was poor.

We all fall short, and I understand there are consequences that come with that. However, I feel more defeated. I feel hurt. And I feel judged. Caused by my very own sisters. I don't think any member of this sorority should feel the way you've made me feel.

I have questioned the character of the people in this room, along with my own. Who is blame? I don't think you can point fingers, but somewhere... someone... slipped. I forgive you. I accept it.

That being said, I don't expect an apology. I just want to call it to your attention. I know I'm not alone in this.

My hope is you hear me and try to understand.

There is a place for rules and regulations, and there's no way around that. You hope everyone respects that, but there will always be those who try to tip-toe around it.

I can't justify anyone's actions other than my own.

In my actions, I had no intentions to cause harm or put my family members in jeopardy. My little, grand littles and great grand little mean more to me than they or anyone will ever know.

It is my wish, however, that they learn from my actions and leave this chapter better than how they found it. I want them to be the best version of themselves during their time here.

I never want them to know the feeling that I am feeling in this moment.

Judged. Embarrassed. Ashamed.

It still amazes me that this chapter gave me so much confidence, love, and support. It all fell apart within minutes between me and 10 sisters.

I still love you all unconditionally because we will forever share a common bond within our sisterhood.

You all have been elected to lead our chapter, and my hope is that you do so with grace. Please keep your heart open and maintain a good head on your shoulders.

Everyone looks up to you. You set the example.

I leave this chapter with faith in your leadership and your ability to make a difference for the future generations. This is a heavy burden, but I have confidence you are able to take on the responsibility.

XO