Part of me wants to take back all the time that I’ve invested in you. I have spent countless hours to lose it to another.

How long is forever? How does right now feel?

I wish someone could remind how it feels to be loved. I wish he was the glow on my skin. I wish that every time he said my name I heard the angels sing.

I’ve thought about love a million times.

Just like I’ve always imagined how my life would be if I had a father to tell me that he still loved me- even when the dumb boys didn’t.

Or how there has always been a hole in my heart cause even when he gets close, I know he’ll soon leave.

I have learned to love myself like the tree I am.

I am water.

I am the shining sun.

I am everything I need him to be, all in one.