I was recently told by a guy I was falling for that I was " a lot". I began to wonder what he meant since all I had done was offer to save him a new years kiss.

I mean I was a little forward at the time but a girl wants what she wants and I wasn't going to wait around playing games. I was hurt, confused, and baffled by his statement.

Was I not the same girl he had called beautiful earlier that day?

Was I not the girl he was excited to see when I came to town?

I was just being honest and putting my feelings on the line so why was I suddenly too much for him to handle. I wasn't until I talked to some dear friends of mine that I realized what this mysterious "a lot" meant.

First off, it meant that I was just too much for you to handle. You were just not ready to have a strong, independent woman in your life. I genuinely feel bad for you and the fact that you lost your chance with me. I hope that one day you find a girl that calls you on this.

Secondly, this means that you have reached your three strike limit, and it's time for the next batter come to the plate. I have a feeling he might take his chance a little more seriously than you did.

It's time for me to say goodbye to you. I am choosing to walk away from this game you are playing. If you decide one day that you can handle me, well, I won't be there waiting for you.

I am going to go find someone who thinks I'm something special. The guy that wants me for me and will accept the "a lot" that I am.