Shattered Perspectives is a series of visuals and poetry. There will be a total of four parts to this series: self, us, beyond, and now. Poetry has always played an important role in my life. For a while, it was the only form of self-expression I had. Discovering who I really am was driven by my poetry. Poetry was, and still is my voice. The beautiful thing about poetry is that you can be completely honest. To be as honest as possible with yourself and your audience.
Self dives into my innermost fears and desires. I want people to understand that who I present myself as, is completely different than who I want to be and who I actually am. My depression and sadness is an integral part of who I am today. Self is this exploration. Though I'm not depressed anymore, everyone has their bad and good days. Self focuses on how the bad days drive my point of view and thought processes. Self is the manifestation of years of self-doubt, and questioning of my extremely finite human existence.
Self:
I look in the mirror
and see the broken reflection of my former self.
Desperate to evolve into
who I am supposed to be.
I sought greater meanings
in finite concepts
Cloudy memories of
who I was
shatters my ability to understand
who I am
So much depends on
where I want to be.
But I can't understand
where I am right now.
I wish I could accept
my happiness and sadness.
Lost in the depths of my
repetitive fears.
My body caves into the
emptiness of loneliness.
Random bouts of
crippling depression.
My thoughts alone,
constantly overthinking,
suffocate the present moments.
Smile.
And everything will be okay.
Breathe.
If you could understand
how terrified I am of loneliness...
Delving into a psychedelic mindset,
losing thought processes.
I am overwhelmed
by the inadequacy of my own
human existence.
Aching for something I
lost in the depths of
broken smiles and sad eyes.
I'm definitely interested to see where I go with this Shattered Perspectives series... I haven't written all of the poetry sections yet, but I realize that I'm going to have to dive deep into my emotions and experiences in order to truly be honest with myself and my audience.
Like I said in a previous article, facing realties and talking about something is one step towards finding a solution. In poetry, you always have to face harsh realities. The solution is coming to terms with these harsh realities, leading to greater discoveries, and learning about a previously unknown truth about yourself. Honesty is the only way to discover these unknown truths.
Next week we discover Us, where I dive into my relationship and talk about what truly makes Us work.
