There they are again, fighting

Their words stinging and biting.

Not even involved am I

Yet I'm fighting the tears in my eyes

My heart is breaking

My world is shaking

I am sad, confused, tired, angry

All at once, simultaneously.

I thought it wouldn't be bad now

But it is hurting me to see just how

They are shredding my hopes and dreams

With all their yells and all their screams.

Just when I think I cannot go on

You give me what I need to keep holding on

I've been here before, You were faithful then

Here I am again, and so You'll lead me again.

It hurts me deeply

I ask if You see me

You reply with a "Yes, my dear;

I see your pains and hurts and tears.

Hold Me close as I hold you

Always remember, I never forsake you."

The pain isn't leaving, yet neither are You

In the darkness, a light is shining through

There is hope

Even if for it I still have to grope

I am beaten, broken, shattered, dirty

But still You take me in lovingly

You tenderly wipe my every tear

And ease my heart of every fear

I find the pain is lessening

When on You I am focusing.

The fights still occur, but I know

You have never left me. And so

I press on, as hard as it may be

For You are here, inspiring me

Helping me heal from every hurt

And cleaning away all the dirt.

In all You do, You have shown

A love greater than I've ever known.

No human has the capacity

To hold the extent of Your love so deep

And that is the hope I can hang on to

Always so sure, so real, and so true

Life has proven it can easily bring me down

But life, from You, cannot keep me bound

For in Your Name there is freedom

To live for You and Your kingdom

Instead of being tied to my sins

And being by the evil one imprisoned.

I know, my God, that You are trustworthy

So before You I lay down all my worries

I try to leave them, but I feel incapable

Of laying them down and staying faithful

And true to You, even though I believe

You never have, never will, or ever do leave

So as I bring to You my heartaches

Remind me to not again take

These wounds that have afflicted me,

Just show me, Lord, Your beauty.

The pain is still so real, and it stings

But I come to You and over me You sing

A song of hope, healing, restoration

I never thought I'd see, but now I believe in

And You remind me of Your Son

And all that You have done

You whisper softly "It's not your fault;

This is a result of others not being light and salt."

You wrap me in Your arms so tightly

Gently speaking to me to not go into hiding

But to embrace the life given me

For it was always intended for God's glory

And to bring good to this earth

Although pain is a part of it, and hurt

He reminds me of His vast love

And there's nothing I can do to be rid of

That rich, amazing, beautiful love

That love He is so often speaking to me of

He reminds me that He can turn even bad to

Good for all: for me, for him, for her, for you.

A thought of pain comes back to remind

Me of that horrible, awful time

And I say, "If only I weren't so sensitive,

Why are feelings so much of what I live?"

Once again He comforts me, saying

That He created me that way, to be loving

To show that aspect of His nature

And to be to the world a comforter.

He says not to fret about my personality

That it is a form of His artwork and beauty.

I'm reassured that this is ultimately for good

Even when I can't see it, He is still good

He is mine and I am His

So I shall trust in Him for as long as I live.