The scariest things are the unknown. Senior year makes this clear with all the curve balls it throws at you. There are so many questions that can not be answered. We live in a society where we love and need quick responses.
We expect people to get back to you right away but some things are not immediate like college acceptance letters or knowing if you secured your spot on the honor roll. The best and most rewarding gifts are worth waiting for. Even if you do not get on honor roll or get into your preferred college, waiting to hear back shows that you are passionate about the results and overall committed.
Making the hard choices are part of life.
Trust me, I know it is difficult but you need to focus more on what you know is right vs what you want to be right. I had the choice to go a bigger school high profiled school, where most of my friends are going, but instead, I decided to go to a smaller, less known school because of the accommodations it gives. I just had a gut feeling.
Florida State University is a beautiful school with a great environment but I knew deep down it was not the school for me. I stayed up for days, maybe even weeks, writing the perfect college essay for FSU. I wanted it to be perfect because that was where I wanted to go.
After getting accepted to Florida Gulf Coast University, my focus changed. My main priority is and always will be success. I want to succeed and the biggest thing I had to look for was where I would have to go in order to.
Once I was accepted into a college and I decided that was where I wanted to go, it still didn't get any easier. The few months in-between getting accepted and graduation was not as easy as you might think. I don't know if you have heard of this disease, but I came down with a bad case of “senioritis”.
I could not find one ounce of motivation to go to school or study when I was so excited to start my college life. I felt held down by the excessive amount of work my teachers would give, but it was important for me not to lose my drive. I was looking for motivation wherever I could find it.
One of the most stressful realizations about senior year is the constant reminder that you will be on your own and need to know what you want to do in the future.
At every family gathering at least someone asks, “where are you going?” Or “what are you going to study in college?” I honestly have no idea what I want to do. Hopefully, I'll figure it out on the way.
Senior year was a journey but the final destination is life on your own in the real world.