I know, it hurts. It hurts to feel alone, sad, worthless and helpless. No matter how much you want to talk about how you feel with someone, you always feel like a burden. You don't like receiving compliments because you feel as if people are just lying to you. Whether or not I'm writing this for myself or for someone else, I hope that it well help someone along the way realize that they are worth it.
It's amazing how each and every person is unique. Humans are like snowflakes (overly cliched, but oh well), but have you ever really looked at snow falling? I mean really REALLY looked at snow. In one single place, thousands of snowflakes falling, each individual one is not like the one before it or after it. One snowflake could be the reason school is cancelled, to create the perfect snowball, make fantastic sledding weather, the smile on a child's face because they caught it on their tongue, the perfect atmosphere to a first kiss and you, my friend, are that snowflake. You are important to creating a better world. You could be that difference in someone's life that they really needed.
Stop putting yourself down. I know I make that seem easy. It's not, I know that from experience. I want to give you a challenge and if you feel uncomfortable doing it, that means it's working. Every time you put yourself down, I want you to give yourself a compliment. That's right, GIVE YOURSELF A COMPLIMENT. My best friend and also wonderful roommate told me to write down one good thing that happened during the day. So that's two things, a compliment to yourself, and a journal of good things that happened. You can write down anything good! For example, I smiled today, I said hi to someone new, I ate something healthy. Anything! I believe in you. I know you can do it and you know why? Because you are worth it! You owe it to YOURSELF. Not anyone else, YOURSELF.
Now you're going to make excuses, you don't have time, you can't think of anything good, or just flat out don't want to do it. If you have depression, I understand motivation can lack greatly and it's hard to start. You know what? YOU'RE STILL WORTH IT. When you are feeling the worst is the absolutely most essential time to do these tasks. When you are feeling the absolute worse, I want you to look in the mirror and tell yourself how great of a person you are because you are! You are important. You are beautiful. You are needed. You are worthwhile. The Earth would not be the same without you. When you wake up and go to bed, tell yourself this over and over. At first, you're not going to believe yourself, but the more you say it, the more confidence will grow. But you have to do this. I believe in you. You can do this. You are worth it.
