All my life I have been kind to those who didn't deserve it. I truly believe that many of us can relate to this.
I have never been blessed with enough confidence or security within myself to stand my ground the way that I should, in other words my backbone is more like a spaghetti noodle.
Why am I this way? Why is it so easy for other people to cut someone off, or literally stop caring?
I have never considered myself to be a people-person, until I went off to college my freshman year. I realized the true value of friendships, roommates, and even relationships with professors and advisers. Because when you're feeling down-in-the-dumps that is what can bring you straight out.
At the end of the day however, when everyone has gone to bed and you are awake and alone surrounded by darkness, that is when the devil really comes out to play. Then there's this overwhelming feeling that consumes your soul and you realize, no matter who is in your life, you are the cause of your own self-destruction and the only one who can really help you, is yourself.
What are we doing? My fellow spineless peers? I know I'm not the only one out there. Why do we keep doing this crap to ourselves? Chasing down the wrong guy/girl, letting bullies get in our heads, letting people walk all over us, not fighting for what we believe in...etc.
It's because there is something inside of us that is missing and we are on the search of our lives to try and fill the gap that is there. But the truth is, nothing really fills that gap. Not sex, drugs, alcohol, control, compulsions, temptations...etc. The problem is not physical, or what's in front of us but what's inside of us. There is something wrong with us. We are our own issue.
Lets team up rather than beat each other up. Lets say all lives matter instead of one race, gender, or sexuality. Everyone matters, everyone deserves happiness, everyone needs to feel accepted, loved, wanted, cared for, and appreciated.
But first, like Michael Jackson once said, you gotta look at yourself and make that change. Choose to be strong, choose a healthier lifestyle, choose to do what's right for yourself rather than doing what's easiest. We are special and unique, so why are we letting ourselves be put down and taken advantage of? Why are we settling for less when we are worth so much more?
We deserve life.
We deserve happiness.
Lets just be the people we were created to be, and everything else will fall into place within time.
