Holy shit, I am one semester from graduating.
Though I knew graduation was upon me, I never thought it would happen so fast! I'm not one of those college students who wants to stay at school to party and stay with my friends. They are all leaving, too. I am ready to graduate, but in all honesty, I'm shocked by its haste.
With all things that are impending, graduating seemed so far away. So distant a situation that I never really would have to deal with it, but alas. Here I am, dealing with it.
Here are the thoughts that are coursing through my 4 years, booze-soaked, used and abused and entirely college educated brain.
1. Oh, I need a job. An actual job.
I can no longer get away with saying I'm a waitress, can I? I need benefits, vacation packages, a 401 K (wtf is a 401 K?!?).
2. I am closer in age to my professors than I am to my new sorority sisters.
Recently, I don't even know what my younger peers are talking about. What is Kim Kardashian doing? Who is Taylor Swift dating? I don't know. You know what I do know? How to write a killer cover letter and the fact that my depth writing professor's bought his wife tickets to the ballet for Valentines Day. Oh, god. Will I start going to the ballet??? Am I of that age???
3. What do you mean I need a new wardrobe?
So you mean to tell me that an extra large T and Norts will not cut it in a professional setting?
4. I guess I should get my own checks now.
Since I'll need them for direct deposit information and paying my own rent. The upside is that I can get those monogrammed, right?
5. Will my mother start asking about boys seriously now?
I'm trying to be a successful businesswoman, please keep the boy talk to a minimum, for my sake.
6. How am I going to find roommates?
Do they have "New To Town" Facebook pages for people who can't afford to live on their own and refuse to live with their parents?
7. Wait, I have to make new friends??
My anti-social self BARELY managed to make the friends I have now, and I really like those people. This means I am going to have to try to make new people like me all over again.
8. Oh, drug tests are a thing.
The days of smoking joints before class and drinking wine before group meetings are over. I must now go through life sober and caffeinated.
9. OK, but no more actual tests.
Until company evaluations come around and your boss asks you into her office to talk about your "performance." That's a test you don't even get to bring a flash card for.
10. I am so scared.
If I come to work unprepared, the way I go to class sometimes, there is no safety net. The world is my oyster but it's also my clam trap. It's time to straighten out my priorities and stop eating cheese fries at 3 a.m.
Though it may seem like all the fun is over and the responsibility is overwhelming, the time you spend outside of college, in new cities, and with new people, will shape you for the rest of your life. It's easy to be scared. It's harder to be sure. Be sure in your abilities, your education, and most of all, the fact that you will fail in the real world.
Try to remember that failure is not a sign of weakness, but a sign of evolution.