Scared Out Of My Damn Mind | The Odyssey Online
Start writing a post
Entertainment

Scared Out Of My Damn Mind

But hey, it's just life.

36
Scared Out Of My Damn Mind
George Marks

Let’s be real for a moment.

The majority of us, when faced with the future, are just going blank, and can’t seem to see the pathway that will lead us to our destination. For those of you out there who can see that path, communicate with me right away and tell me your secrets. (I promise to share them with everyone, ergo, no more secrets!) ;)

To be quite frank, not knowing how to accomplish my dream, or by what path I will have to take to get me there, I am terrified. Everyday that I wake up is another day that has gone by, and what have I accomplished? Have I done something to be proud of? Have I accomplished some great task even if it’s a small one? What am I doing with my time?

I’m a procrastinator, and as a writer it’s like kryptonite; I’m self-sabotaging by giving into it. But oh, the sweet sensation of watching pre-recorded T.V. shows is so alluring, and tempting that I find myself with a remote in my hand before the thought is finished. (I do consider watching T.V. to be educational, and in a sense my research because it’s where my own imagination can be stimulated). Same goes for a book, a game, music, any social media, etc … I can go on and on.

I am my own worst enemy. Does that mean I’m afraid of myself? If I’m what’s stopping the progress, should I be scared of me? It is October, and the monsters are creeping out of the woodwork (literally for the Stranger Things fans reading this). Maybe I should give into this monster vibe, and create a work of horror that frightens all those who dare read it’s content. I could possibly even curse them all… but I am not sure I want to use my magic for that. (Too much work)

My path isn’t that complicated. Write children’s books and YA books and self-publish until someone realizes I’m fabulous, and my books are sensational, signs me, and I get to be proud of my accomplishment. Truth be told, however, no matter how many seminars I listen in on and how many websites I read, I can’t ever seem to get a lock down on the process of being a writer. I was an actress, and it’s crazy how parallel the two industries are. You have to promote yourself until others are doing it for you, and even then it’s not like I’ll have figured it all out.

I’m sure you will all be hearing from me soon on my “progress”/”the process” because maybe while I figure this all out, I can help someone else figure it out too. The buddy system is always the best system. This article might even get me some tips on what one does. A checklist would be awesome.

Step one: STOP PROCRASTINATING!

I will start working on step one! How about you? Do you have a handle on procrastinating? If so, please tell me your secrets.

Being a writer is a double-sided coin. At times, things can go real smooth and easy. The winds are at your sails. And then the other times, the wind is dead, the sea is smooth, you are stuck without a paddle and there are sharks circling! I hope that imagery is painting a very clear picture for you. If you would like some gore, please place your hand in the water. I’m sure you will be fine! It’s only the month of Halloween and fright after all!

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
girl partying
HeyMIkeyATL

I've been at this college thing for almost three and a half years, and while I thought that high school was truly the lowest point of my existence, I'm beginning to realize that it was a walk in the park. Like, I miss the days when the biggest white lie I told my parents was my made up excuse about being late for fourth period. These days, the white lies are a tad more complex, and as ashamed as I am to admit it, I've definitely told a few of these.

Keep Reading...Show less
friends
NBC Universal

As most of us already know, Friends is one of the greatest television series ever produced. The cast is genius. The humor never gets old. The episodes are relatable and timeless.

I can easily say that I have watched each season at least three times and I belly laugh harder every time. All Friends fans can agree that there are certain lines that form a bond between us and when heard one cannot help but laugh.

Keep Reading...Show less
Timothy Dwight College
Wikimedia

College can be one of the best memories in a person's life, but it is not all peaches and cream like many movies make it out to be. In the amount of time you attend college, you will discover some of the best and worst things that come along with the college experience.

Keep Reading...Show less
Anna Kendrick
Some Life

The infamous RBF is something I have and am known for. It’s kind of exhausting to be asked if you're okay all the time or being told to smile more. Girls with RBF get judged to be mean and rude much quicker than the girl who is always smiling. It’s true and just plain natural for someone who is generally smiling all the time to come off as more trustworthy and I've gotten used to it. I used to think that having a Resting Bitch Face was only a bad thing until I realized that just like anything else, it also has its perks. Having a permafrown with a piercing look comes with great power.

Keep Reading...Show less
Parks and Rec
IndieWire

We all know that Parks and Recreation is one of the greatest shows ever to air on TV. As we watched every episode, we all found a piece of us in each character (even Jerry). From the moment we met the pit, to the time we saw it flourish into a beautiful park, we all had developed a little bit of Pawnee, Indiana in our hearts.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments