Empty.

I didn’t want anything to begin with. I was happy with nothing, satisfied. You poured into me. And I lost my balance. I was struggling trying to stay above the rim, afloat. I struggled treading the waters, silently crying, left to learn how to swim on my own. Where is God I asked?

Halfway.

Lifeguards tried to save me. Some of them needed saving too. They didn’t mind holding me down until they were able to pull themselves up. Damn near downing to help them breathe. I felt stuck. Where were you? Where was I? I think I lost myself...

I could of sworn that this was the end this time... I didn’t think when I released. I didn’t paddle, I just stayed there. No lifeguards, no boats. Just me, alone in the mess of what you poured into me.

I never asked for this cup. I didn’t give you permission to fill me up. Now I have to learn how to swim & im angry!!!

I’m livid. Because no one taught me how to live like this.

TBC.........