Sometimes you may think you have found the love of your life, and then you realize they are only a monster in disguise. You try to break free, try to run and hide; this doesn’t always help though because they come running for you, making sure you feel the same hell as they do. This isn’t healthy; most people would agree that a true lover only wants you to be happy, even if that happiness is caused by being freed.
Sometimes you will find someone who loves you so much that you begin to question whether or not it was meant to be — you should listen to your gut before it is too late to flee. Your heart may want to stay, and your brain may tell you that your lover can change, but deep down your gut will tell you that the worst has yet to come. This is when you know you have to run. Telling your lover that you must leave is just the beginning, and the pain only grows until you find yourself again. Until you find who you are meant to be, then you will continue to question your decision because you think you were wrong to leave.
You will feel so alone. You will feel wrong. You will feel horrible until something else pushes you to believe that running away was the only way you could be happy. It will only get worse before it gets better which is similar to so many things. You may wonder if that person was your key to happiness. You may question if another person will ever love you again, but I can assure you — no matter what you think is wrong with you — you will find someone who sees how you should be treated. You will find someone who sees the hell you have run through, fell, and been dragged through, and they will love you all the more.
Sometimes the love of your life is just your greatest enemy in disguise, telling you how much they love you, and how they cannot live without you. They will tell you that you, “cannot leave me like this,” but I promise you, it is for the best. To run away when you know you have to, that is the ultimate test. Just remember that because you run away does not mean you have given up. This does not mean you love them any less. Most likely they have been selfish, only taking and never giving. So this one move is your selfish act. Run, run away and never look back. Just remember all the lessons they taught you so you will never be fooled again because chances are you are a lot like me — a person who cares too much to leave someone lying on their back, a broken person with “nothing left.”
There are going to be times when you feel like you have to give up, but just remember you are still a person, nothing less.
