Have you ever had something so that was so great for so long and just somewhere along the way, stopped being so great? Whether it be a habit you have recently picked up, a job you started, a friendship. Somewhere along the way it became toxic to have in your life. You find yourself constantly needing to satisfy this toxic situation because you have all the hope in it. You remember all of the great moments. The easy shifts, the laughs with a friend, the memories made. Nothing can replace those memories and I think that is why we tend to hold onto them for so long. But, eventually you get tired. You get tired of needing to prove yourself and tired of trying to defend who you are as a person to either someone else or yourself on a daily basis. Because, you know who you are.
Not this picture being painted by someone or something else. Never question who you are. I have made this mistake countless time in my situation and I am officially over it. I am done. Done being told who I am by others and what I have been through. Nobody knows that except for me. I know the truth. I know myself. And those who care and truly love me, know me as well. They know I am not defined by what is bringing me down. What is bringing me down is weak. What is constantly trying to tear you down is the problem. I am done thinking I am not strong enough because I know I am. I can take whatever life is going to throw at me. And that includes toxicity. From this day forward, I refuse to allow toxicity into my life. I do not deserve it.
You should do the same if you have any toxic situations going on in your life whether it be with school, work, friends, or family. You deserve better. You are better. Rather than feeding into the toxicity and allowing yourself to dive into a dark place of anger and frustration, remove it from the equation.