On the days you wake up and have no sense of direction, no sense of belonging, I would like for you to remember this important detail of life.
Growth is uneven. Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly but nevertheless you are growing, and this is a reminder to breathe. Often we get caught up with our biological clocks that we forget to enjoy the slightest wins, and we forget to feel even the slightest losses. We are told from a young age to "plan for the future." We get lost in the pressure, the pressure, the pressure. The pressure of being the most social and going to elite schools and getting that thousand dollar degree. Pressured by getting that top job and car and house and family and p e r f e c t i o n, but forget about your sanity society will say. Forget about your happiness, there is no time for that.
Stop.
Just for a moment.
Stop comparing and overanalyzing your life based on what other people around you have or do not have. How do you feel? Are you drowning in your goals or are you rising to them? There is a difference in how we approach what we truly want out of our life and sometimes that will mean blocking out the greater opinions of what other people have told us our whole lives.
Sometimes it's the most strength that we find in our solitude. When we give ourself the time to listen.
Our lifetime is made up of more than educational debt and bank accounts. Remember this when you are balancing a hundred things at once. Do not fear failing and do not fear the unknown because there is no rush, we all come into bloom at our own time. All of the stumbling and searching will eventually lead you down the path that you were always meant to be walking, maybe not as soon as you think though. Ask yourself what is it that you love? We are not all meant to walk the same path and meet the same standards, and definitely do not grow in the same wavelengths. If it is not the right time, then it's just not the right time. You cannot push what is not ready. You cannot grow when it is not your season.
It is not going to be an easy journey, and some days you will trek through mud so deep you'll think you may never find your way out again. It is not always an easy task to continue moving forward and on the days that you can't find your breath and you might be shaking, remember that you are making the long journey back to yourself.
We sometimes grow uneven, mature in one area and immature in another. We are made of different cells, seasons, motives and dreams and we are asked to honor these spaces we fall into over and over until someday you realize that you are home.
