I'm not typically one to discuss personal matters. I am typically one to keep to myself for most of my battles.

I put a smile on for the rest of the world to see even when it feels like my world has turned upside down on me.

He left me without a real explanation. He left me without giving me a chance to say. Here are the words he'll never hear because he broke up with me through a text.

Three years… three years of endless memories, good and bad. Three years of "I love you's" and promises of a future together that we will never have. Three years of compromises, and giving everything I had.

Three years of being patient while he went away for work…lonely nights, missed date nights, not even a phone call most nights, but "I'm making money for our future baby", were the only words I held onto tight.

I remember every little thing. The hardest part is when all the memories flood on in. Each and every one of them breaks my heart a little bit more…

Our dog is heartbroken too and he cries because he misses you as much as I do. He looks at the door to see if your coming home and it breaks my heart because your gone.

Three years of giving you all the love I had to offer and all I was worth to you was a text that made me wonder why I even bothered. Typed words through a small screen and a feeling of instant sadness.

You did more than just break my heart. I started a life with you, you see. You made me leave the place that became my home, my job, and a lot of my hopes and dreams.

You put the blame on me as to why you left me. Momma always said, "It takes two to Tango", but you made me believe it was all me.

You walked away from me for needing too much… for expecting too much from you. I didn't need anything at all if you would've took the time to get to know me at all. I wanted to give away the love in my heart and be loved in return, that's all.

I'm worth more than accepting anything less than what I deserve. I'm sorry that the things that I needed from you always seemed so absurd.

Goodnight kisses, flirting back with me, appreciating the things I do, quality time spent together after a week apart, and communicating with me were just some of the things that were way too much for you.

It's hard to think not so long ago. You told me you loved me for me. You told me I had the kindest heart you'd ever known and that I was the prettiest girl you'd ever seen.

You filled my head with empty promises of love without end. Now I'm here trying to put myself together and wondering what caused the end. I fought for us since day one and you gave up on me.

Three years, you see seems like a lifetime… a lifetime spent mostly with you. You took everything away from me so suddenly. I honestly don't know what to do.

I scream, I cry, I pray and ask God over and over again why.

I'll thank you for all this pain you've caused me some day when I find the man I thought you could be. A man who knows my worth. A man who means it when he says he loves me.

I'll thank you for this someday when I'm living out my dreams, not only with the love of my life, but with the man God intended to be with me.

I'll thank you for this when I follow all of my dreams. No one is holding me back. You've set me free.