I wasn't expecting a relationship or even becoming his best friend. When we first met, we rarely even met up after work and not a single text was exchanged between us. It wasn't like I didn't try, of course. His girlfriend took most of his time and I understood that. Our relationship has always been that way but I was still so disappointed when he chose her over me.
Not even a week had gone by, barely even a weekend and his promises had all been broken.
"I promise to be a better friend. I promise to be there for you. I promise to treat you better," were just a few promises that didn't last.
I suppose even promises now have an expiration date. He never said his promises would last forever or even til the end of summer, but I still had hoped that it would last longer than it did. The moment that swingset-heart of a girl decided she was bored with her new lover, she picked up the phone and asked for his forgiveness. I don't blame him much for returning to a loveless affair but I must put blame on his disregard towards me. She's let him fall multiple times and still returns to her side when she calls.
It was as if I wasn't by his side while he picked himself back up. That I hadn't watched him cry and held him close.
Giving him my all was less than her giving him a grain of attention. I became nothing to him and slowly he became a funny story of childish actions I can learn from and grow. I will, however, check in on him now and then. Though our friendship ended in bitter terms, I still believe he can have the whole world if he wanted it and I hope one day he realizes it as well and reaches for all he can achieve.