The last time we left off, I was explaining how I felt like I was suffocating Lesson #1 from his friends. Well, the feeling never went away.

In November, my feelings started to get bigger than what they already were. We spent Thanksgiving at two different places. He spent it with his mom and I spent it with some b****. I won’t forget that Thanksgiving because I told him how I wanted ice cream really bad so, he came and picked me up, realized it was Black Friday, and gave me some good…instead. If you know what I am saying.

In my head, I thought we were in a relationship but in his mind we were just kicking it. He told me before that if we just keep doing what we are doing that we will eventually get married in 6 or 7 years so my psycho self was like,” Yup, that’s it. This is my husband.”

Before Christmas, he let me meet his mom. He brought me to church with him to meet her.

I’ve never been so nervous in my whole life. She is very intimidating. Lesson #1’s mom was taken back because Lesson #1 didn't tell his mom I was coming. She saw me, smiled and leaned back into her seat. I followed her around the church because at the beginning you had to greet new people. She turned around and was,” Why do you keep following me?”

I panicked and told her how Lesson #1 wanted me to do it than she was like just kidding and said she liked my freckles. We went out to eat and she just kept asking me why I liked him. She was just like," My son? Are you sure you like my son?" It was hilarious. Overall, it was a fantastic day.

Christmas is my absolute favorite time of the year. I love the lights, presents, love and just the feeling. I wanted to make Lesson #1’s Christmas, the best Christmas he’s ever had.

Y’all wouldn’t believe what I got him. I got him a hover board, a custom made jersey, clothes and socks. He really liked the socks. It was all sent at a different time so it was a different present everyday.

My friend at the time asked me to go to California for two weeks with him and a couple other people so of course I couldn’t say no. The only way I was going was if Lesson #1 was going. AND GUESS WHO WENT TO CALIFORNIA TOGETHER FOR A WEEK AND A HALF TOGETHER? You guessed it, Lesson #1 and I. It was the most fun I’ve had in a long time because we just dabbed in a lot of marijuana because it’s legal in California and that’s all we did. We literally were high for a week and a half straight.

I really don’t remember the trip because I was that high but I know it was cute and it was just a great way for us to just spend time with each other. No bullshit, no annoyance or anyone else, just us.

After the New Year kicked in, I definitely assumed we were together but it felt like he was pushing me away. I felt more like an annoyance instead of the girl that makes him happy. His birthday was coming up.

You thought Christmas was a lot, oh no honey. His birthday was even better. He didn’t want anything for his birthday but I definitely didn’t take no as an answer. He was an angry chocolate man that day. It was cute though. My best friend and I went to Dollar General, I got him about 13-14 balloons, a bunch of random stuff stuffed in a Ninja Turtle bag, $30 dollars’ worth of Chinese from his favorite Chinese restaurant, a cake that had a marijuana plant on it and a cute cupcake.

I made him stay in his room so that I could decorate his living room/kitchen. I put the balloons all the around the living room and kitchen, put the cake and the bag of fun stuff on the table. I made the candles a 69 because you get it. His roommates walked down and one of them said,” Oh I’m ready for this.” He walked out of his room and his reaction was so precious.

He was so happy. My biggest thing ever was just seeing him smile. I loved his smile. It was so innocent and cute even though he was evil. He opened everything, blew out his candles then the rest was fantastic. Yeah, I went over and beyond for him. I never asked for anything in return because his smile was enough.

XOXO,

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