Senior year.

We are finally making choices for ourselves. Our whole lives have been centered around doing things to stay connected. So what happens when we have to choose to pull away from our norm or do what is inside the safe zone. It's funny because growing up I never had a big group of buddies who did the cool hobbies like dancing together of whatever or something that I always did. So when I found friends I did everything in my power to not stray from them. Now I found my thing. Teaching. I love it, I live for it. I've been put in a spot: to choose to be crammed and uncomfortable or do what's right for me. I want to do what's right for me and what will make me the best I can be.

It is just a struggle to know that I'm finally moving away from the thing I thought was best. Our parents told us "think about you," "love yourself". We thought by loving others it would compensate for our lack of self love. We can't make our decisions if we make them depending on everyone around us. The thing about making these types of choices is we don't realize that this is the start of something new. (Sorry I love High School Musical)

What we do now will really lay the foundation for everything else. How are we just going to choose between everything we've ever known. I just don't get that. I do get that I want the best opportunities for me. I want to have just as good of a chance as being great or even better than the person behind me. I've figured it out. I need to let go. High School lasts four years for a reason. Thing are, temporary, but life is something we want to put the rest of our years into, if that means letting go I'm okay with that.

As for right now I'm going to a be lame senior who wears construction paper letters on her clothes because she has a passion for kids. Even if my friends think it's dumb.