You’re closed off. You don’t let many people inside your mind. You’re afraid that if people see the person who isn’t as strong as you show sometimes, they won’t love you as much as they do now because once you do show them your vulnerable side they always leave.
You’re wrong. Never think for a second that you aren’t good enough. Never for a second think that the person behind the walls you’ve so strongly put up isn’t worthy of anything less than perfect. And any person who leaves once you open up is simply not worth your time.
I’ve been that person who thinks everyone will leave, in fact, I still am. I’m working on improving myself and improving on the happiness that I want to surround myself with- it's not easy but I've made progress. But if there is anything I’ve learned this entire summer is this:
If somebody walks away from you after you open up to them-then they are not worthy of the amazing person that you are. Yes, it hurts to open up to somebody and watch that person leave your life. But I’ve learned that if they leave, do not chase after them. There will always be people who are worth so much more of your time, your energy, and worth so many more beautiful smiles that you have.
If the person says that they “don’t have the time”, then don’t give them any of your time. Everybody has the time- trust me. And if they don’t-then they make time. If a person truly cares they actually will make the time for you. But if somebody can tell you that they don’t have the time for you-walk away.
I’ve been disappointed many times, but the biggest trend I’ve noticed is that they all say that I deserve somebody better. And guess what-they’re right. I do. I deserve somebody who will go out of their way in the middle of the week when I’m not feeling well to come watch a movie with me and make sure my temperature isn’t going up, even if they live 45 minutes away. I deserve somebody who looks me in the eyes and doesn’t say a word. They just smile. And I know through that smile that there are millions of words not said out-loud, but shown through their expression. I’m lucky enough to say that I’ve been able to find somebody like that. They're one of the most amazing people who I've ever met. Believe it or not, I've found a few people who would always go out of their way for me in incredible ways, as I would for them. And believe it or not-you deserve that, too. And you will find that. I promise.
So don’t settle for people who “don’t have the time.” Because a person who truly cares about you doesn’t care about time when it comes to you. All they care about is the different sighs you make when you’re upset because they just want to see you happy. Or the way you bite your lip when you’re thinking intensely about something. They only care that through everything you’re happy.
So before you think you’re not worthy, or before you think that you won’t find somebody who can love you for everything you are, you are worthy. You will find somebody who can love you the way you deserve to be loved. For now, just focus on you. Focus on your personal goals-and don’t let people who can’t support you ruin them for you. Ever.
