Today marks 25 days of quarantine for me, and I learned very fast that I hate it! Not only did school let out for the rest of the year, but I lost my job too. Now, I'm stuck at home with three younger siblings and a mom that is suddenly a homeschool teacher.

I never would've thought that I'd be praying and begging to go back to school. I know that we all groan and roll over when our alarms start blaring at the crack of dawn. So why am I having such a hard time with this? I realized that it's not the school that I miss so much, it's the memories I made while I was there. As a current high school senior, my daily schedule was insane! I had gotten so used to showing up to practice in the morning and going to work straight after the final bell rang, I wouldn't even pull into my driveway until 11 P.M. most nights. Now, my car is barely even leaving the driveway.

It seems like there is something cancelled everyday. Yesterday, it was announced that all Arkansas schools will not be going back on campus for the rest of the school year. This took so much from me, and it made me realize that I won't get to see a lot of my friends or teachers again.

Here are some things that I'm holding on to hope for, my prom and graduation have not been cancelled yet. Some people laugh when they find out that girls are crying over their senior prom being cancelled, in my opinion, that is a perfectly reasonable thing to cry about. Prom day is a huge deal for a lot of people, myself being one of them. There is something so special about seeing all of your friends show up looking their very best, in dresses and suits that they picked out and feel confident in. I already have a dress and shoes, patiently sitting in my closet, waiting for me to pick them up and play dress up for the night.

The worst part is knowing that graduation may be cancelled. My heart breaks every time that I hear that a school has cancelled a graduation. I was lucky enough to be elected as the Class of 2020 president at my high school, this means that I get to speak at graduation. This is something that I've had my eyes set on since 2016. I've been working on my speech for months, recruiting dozens of teachers to help me write the perfect speech.

Now it is a waiting game. We're all waiting anxiously to see a news report announcing that the curve has flattened and we can resume our normal lives! But until that announcement is made, stay inside, follow the CDC guidelines, and wash your hands!