Do you ever feel like the world pretty much only revolves around you?
If your answer to that question was "not really" then you might have to come teach me (along with the rest of the world) your magical ways.
I think the truth is we all tend to feel like everything revolves around us. I am completely guilty of buying into the lie that everything is all about me. We only ever truly see our life through our own eyes; so naturally it is very easy for us to begin to start thinking this way. However, even with all the attention and focus on us how is it that we can still feel so low about ourselves?
I mean after all: we are awesome and funny and cool and popular and nice and humble (obviously!) So why do we still feel so insecure and out of place? Maybe it's because we need to stop telling ourselves how awesome and funny and cool and popular and nice and humble (obviously) we are.
I am all for having a high self esteem; I am one-hundred percent on board for feeling confident and secure with yourself, but it seems that sometimes things can quickly turn into prideful confusion. I feel hopeful that I am not alone when I say that my pride makes me the absolute worst version of myself. It is hard to admit that. Pride does that you know: makes it hard to admit things. Things like the fact we are not always awesome or funny or cool or popular or nice and certainly not always humble (obviously).
It's easy to quickly throw up walls that are built of bricks of denial and pride in the face of dealing with the worst parts of ourselves. It easy to tell ourselves that we are still "awesome" after we have hurt someone or disappointed ourselves. I have lied to myself many a time. But if we were honest with ourselves we would be able to see that sometimes we are truly mean, truly cynical, truly selfish. How can we overcome these things if we don't admit them to ourselves?
Pride is a foe who we let become a friend. Pride lies to us, confuses us, and pulls us away from inner peace. There is no greater battle than the one that we hold within ourselves. Pride is a strong army and sometimes we surrender much too quickly too it. We can fight back with the tools of truth, with "I'm sorry" and with "I was wrong." And even while these tools can sometimes be hard to grasp and feel a bit awkward, they are the very things that will help you win your battle. We can finally attempt to let go of the person we pretend to be. We can be honest.