I've been through my fair share of difficult heartbreaks.
They aren't fun and they make you wonder if you are actually worth something or are desirable. After each heartbreak, I always wonder, "When is my Prince Charming coming? I'm tired of waiting."
For this reason, I pray for my future husband every day:
1. I pray that my future husband knows love.
I (selfishly) hope that he's had his heart broken, too. I hope that he understands what it feels like to be let down, unloved, and tossed away. I hope he knows what this feels like so that he'll value our love and what we have so much more.
2. I pray that my future husband knows how to forgive.
We all make mistakes; there is no denying it. I pray that he forgives me if the house isn't always tidy. I pray that he forgives me when I get in one of my moods and have an attitude. I pray that he forgives me when I forget to pick up something from the store. I pray that he knows forgiveness and is able to forgive me.
3. I pray that my future husband loves to laugh.
There is nothing more in this world that I love more than having a good laugh with someone I love. It's so good for the soul and makes me feel so complete. I pray that we have countless nights that we just stay up together making each other laugh and we forget all of our other worries. Laughter is the best medicine and I hope that we can find that within each other.
4. I pray that my future husband will love to travel and explore the outdoors.
I can't wait to travel all around the world one day. I would love to share these experiences with my husband. I want to share kisses and a romantic candlelit dinner in Paris. I want to go skinny dipping in Greece. I want to go on a safari and visit an elephant reserve in Africa. I want to spend a night cuddling under the beautiful Northern Lights in Alaska. I want to see this beautiful world with my best friend. I want him to have these same dreams that I do.
5. I pray that my future husband wants to be a daddy.
There is nothing in this world that I want more than to be a mommy. I pray that he will be my partner and help me raise the beautiful children that we will have to become kind, smart, curious, and successful people. I hope that when our little girl falls down and cuts her knee, that he'll pick her right back up and kiss her little forehead and cover her cut with a bandaid. I hope that when our little boy gets the desire to play sports, that my husband will want to coach his team. I pray that my future husband will be a hands on dad and love our children just like my dad loves and adores me.
6. Lastly, I pray that my future husband loves me for me.
Please love me for me. I shouldn't have to change who I am for you to love me. I hope that you love the way that I sometimes snort when I laugh, sometimes drool when I sleep, and sometimes can't just leave you alone because I love you so much. I can't wait to meet you. You're all that I've been dreaming about. I pray that you're having a good day every day ... but I'm also praying that it's a day closer that I am to meeting you.