Overwhelming, painstaking, breathtaking

All the things we wish we could say about our very first,

But the sorrow of my humanity could never let me utter these lies,

Entry should be easy, it should be over in one go,

Paranoia disagrees, before it gets to the height fear is stronger than intoxication,

Paranoia might as well have been your partner,

He won't let go, he's bossy and arrogant, and he knows that you are too weak to push him away just like loneliness,

She's a harlot, she swears she'll stay with you forever, truth is she has many others who comfort her,

But her jealousy is extreme and time with paranoia makes her livid,

All of these partners, gave you your first of everything,

Tears, intoxication, wounds,

Tears, intoxication, lies,

Tears, intoxication, fear,

With each prick, you're enamored, your mind is hammered

She's keen on ascension at the cost of your attention,

Will you even remember that paranoia, that loneliness, that jealousy,

Breathtaking, painstaking, overwhelming,

And you do it again,

Fighting dependency with addiction,

Who was it that said this is how battles ought to be won

Don't pretend to fight,

You addict, this fine powder is life, this fine powder is bliss,

Your dying? oh well,

In all your euphoria you'll forget again.