Millions of thoughts running through my head
Like an endless marathon-
what did I do to deserve this?
why am I constantly living in fear of those around me
why do I live to please others
why do I care what people say
the truth is I hate myself
the feeling I have when I wake up in the morning is indescribable
when I get ready I don't turn on the lights
I sit in darkness
Like The darkness in my brain
Overshadows all the happy thoughts I used to have
They say im the girl with the biggest smile
But if you ask me, im the girl with the most pain
The heartbreaks, the constant betrayal, the painful goodbyes
It is a never ending battle
a constant rollercoaster
Life has its ups and downs
I am being pushed into a dark hole
A constant yet excrutiating
Sadness fills my eyes, but I must not show emotion
For the society I live in beckons for me to be perfect
Telling me a certain way to act
And im tired of trying to please everyone
And as the tears stream down my face like a waterfall
I must hide my true emotion
For it is my greatest weakness
with every breath i take
i feel death trying to escape
but he is stuck
clinging onto my unhappiness
seeing and feeling my inner thoughts
he is afraid
i am afraid.
