Severe

Today I came to visit

I took a few of your tests

And

You told me that I had it

Severe—

Anger

All I have is anger

it boils inside of me

little things set me off

today

it was hard to control today

when usually I

Can

I don’t know

Why

It was different this time—

(...)

Nobody

Cares

about what you think

so just stay

Quiet—

Keep your

Thoughts

to yourself if they are not

Positive—

Stop talking.

Your thoughts don’t matter.

Just stop breathing.

Go kill yourself—

Daughter

you haven’t even

tried

to talk to me

since

you got home

what does that mean

what does that mean

am i a bother

or are you just

tired

of dealing with me

what does that mean

what does that mean

i am your daughter

yet

i always feel like a

stranger

in my own house—

Food

Another night without

Dinner

How many can I go?

It

is almost a challenge

Now

To see how many days

I

can go—

Hunger

I am so hungry

It

feels like some

Foreign

being is scraping its

Claws against my

stomach walls

I am so hungry

But I can’t let myself eat—

Unnatural

Why is it

That

my body is

unnatural?

But yours is

Not

and all other things

Are Not

But

I

Am—

Nerves

My nerves are getting the

Best

of me

I am so

scared

about not being

good enough

or

fitting in

or

failing

I am just so

scared—