The words I tried to avoid saying, I knew I had to say
It is for her own good or so I convinced my mind
I lay in my bed, thinking of my betrayal and started to pray
She says I’m a good person, someone to be glad to find
Her smile, though rare, are like sun rays
Her emotions reflect what I sometimes hide
Fears of rejection and abandonment
Claws of pain rank my tender imagination
There is a wonder that I am still in this moment
Someone save me from this hallucination
There it is….my guilt, my betrayal