I hate the way I still can't smile

The way I used to

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Every kiss

Every hug

Every smile

It all felt like Christmas morning as a small child

You were the greatest gift life had ever given me

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I wonder if there is anyone out there

That can stop me

From running

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She thought it was a curse

To feel everything

So deep but

How can it be wrong to love beyond the stars?

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My biggest mistake is making

My heart feel homeless

Constantly seeking shelter

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I am lost in someone

Who doesn't want to get lost in me

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My heart was already broken

I hoped you could mend it back together

But you played with the broken pieces

Like a child playing with building blocks

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I sit tonight in pain

Waiting for a better day

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I'm sinking when

I so desperately want to fly

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You were my lifeboat

 I drowned

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You planted seeds of love

In the empty spaces

Of my heart

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I wonder if the day will ever come

Where this suffering will end

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I'm going under

And this time I feel there is no one to turn to