the night that I was going to die
wasn’t night, was it?
sky blue day
tragically joyous like May
wasn’t it?
my heart rhythm incomplete
your love pools under my skin
deep purple passion
the blood bruises on my skin, ashen
air robbed from my throat
reconciliation for my sins
shards of hate pierce my eyes
sharp as your sadistic grin
bright blue veins dilate
you desecrate the beat of my heart
extreme mortality rate
and what have you left me with
my mind teems, screams
with psychotic odor,
idiotic
the frigid narcotic warmth of your love
cold comfort of arms, fragile body
mind heart love disembodied
harm, arms, chaos, charm
dark, darling
blue like my worldview
bright blue, light, eternal flight
feel what lies underneath
i hate you don’t leave me
don’t you dare cheat me
i love you
believe me