To the girl with the prettiest blue eyes:

I say goodbye

My heart ripped in two

And I truly did love you

I fell for you way too fast

And today I ended up in last

You want nothing to do with me now

And it literally hurts me deep down

I feel that I lost my best friend

And that this relationship has completely ended

What you wanted was a friendship?

I don't think that was ever the case

I am glad I made you tell me to my face

I did everything for you and this is how I'm repaid?

A slap in the face

A cut straight through my heart

I opened up to you, I let you in

I let you see my past, all my sins

I did so much for you, I got along with your folks

Seems to me it was all one big joke

What am I to you?

Some tissue to be used?

And thrown away

Let me ask you one question if I may?

Why? Why did you do it?

Why did you make me feel like complete shit?

Why did you take my heart and rip it to bits?

Why does it seem like a dream?

As my stomach is aching and my chest feels like it will burst through the seams

With you I thought of the future- of our own dreams

How they aligned and for once I 'knew' it would work

But here I am feeling like a jerk

I knew there was something off, something wrong

With you I felt that is where I belonged

Loving you is now something I long

I thought of how perfect it was- our homes close together

In you I saw my soulmate, my forever

But now I'm lost

You are the cost

Who will I talk to all day

Who will I tell my deepest darkest secrets to if I may

Who will hug me and tell me it's okay

Who will tell me that it is okay to be gay

Who will be my friend today

Who will understand my hopes my fears

But let me make one thing clear

You are not sorry you did this, you are sorry you got caught

That is why you are so distraught

To think how badly I wanted you

How badly I wanted all your dreams to come true

For me it was always only ever you

Not a question, you were my selection

To me it was so infectious

Our love seemed real

But in the end, it is all so surreal

I did not get the right hand in the deal

Right now I lay crying, my lips are sealed

Is this what you really wanted in the end?

To break my heart and then ask to be my friend?

That is a pretty petty end to this story, a tip I may lend

I am the one you should be with and whose heart you should mend

But that will not happen right in the end?

I'll be forgotten, a distant memory to you

And to that I say bullshit boo

I know there is something between us but you cannot see it now

I guess I should end this poem somehow

No one to text. No one to call. No one to comfort me.

No one good enough except you I thought that is what I would see

I am not writing this to make any plea

I know you made a mistake and will realize it which is key

And by then I will be gone don't you see?

But to you an old love is all you see

Maybe you will learn

Maybe I have some pictures and memories to burn

Maybe the key word, for you I still yearn

But for me I do not need someone to fix me, I did that myself and it took some time

I am happy with me but for you I rhyme

Because quite frankly with me, you have lost a dime

And sorry to say but that is a damn crime

I gave you everything I could give

And now I am left with something I wonder if I will ever be able to forgive

For some reason I want to but I know that is wrong

I do not quite know where I belong

Confused, lost, depressed

For someone that made my life so happy even when I was a mess

And now I cannot think straight and it is so late

I really did think you were my soulmate

You were the only exception

But that phrase seemed to have died at its conception

I knew I was losing you, I could feel it in my bones

And now I am left with a whole lot of good memories and yet I am the one all alone.