We all go through it, a point in life where you feel like all the bad things are happening at once. Well we usually feel this way more than once. I recently just went through this feeling. It was so bad that I dropped everything here at school and drove home to be with family and the people that needed me most at that time. It was once I got back to school that I realized I never gave myself time to grieve over the things that happened, I was too concerned about making sure everyone around me was doing okay. And now thinking about it I realize that I still have not given myself a chance to grieve. Yes I have had my day that I do not do anything, I barely even get out of bed but I have not let my emotions get the best of me.
When I look around at the people I am surrounded by I realize that they are willing to show their emotions no matter what. And then I start to think maybe there is something wrong with me because I do not cry when someone tells me bad news or when something bad happens to someone I care about. But it has been a week since I got some horrible news and I still have not let my emotions show. It has honestly become something that worries me, and it makes me wonder what my friends think of me. So over the past week I have given this a lot of thought and here is what I have decided.
It is not a bad thing that my emotions have not caught up to me, I know that some day soon they will. It is not going to be a pretty sight when they do, but I know they will catch up to me. And when that day comes, I know that I am surrounded by friends who have become my family away from home.
