In a social media rattled world where everyone is comparing apples to oranges, things can get pretty dicey in the relationship realm. We are fueled biologically and culturally to partner up and find a forever mate. The pressure to secure someone is a daunting thought that ways over me as I have pretty much been single for five years with the exception of an on and off thing for a few months. As much as people tell me that that special person will come around one day, I am content with the peace I have created for myself.
Hence, I don't do lonely well.
To be honest, it is quite terrible that I get to plan my day and stick to a routine that allows me to build a better mental space. The fact that I wake up in my space, with my things, and go to work without having to answer to anyone brings me such sadness, not. I wake up to the birds chirping, sunshine raining in, and wonder what I did to deserve such solace.
I don't do lonely well.
After a long day at work, I think how sad it is that I get to build my favorite workout routine around my goals. It's also a bummer because there is no one else in the car to steal the aux cord and I get to play all the songs that get me hype for the gym. Once I am at the gym, I am focused and in the zone. Cardio and back days are my favorite. Once finished with my workout, I am naturally hungry and ready to dive into cooking my go-to meals. Ground beef, ground turkey, greek yogurt and Diet Cokes are some of the staples in my fridge because unfortunately all the room in the fridge is for myself.
I don't do lonely well.
One of the most relaxing parts of my day is my nightly shower. It is my me time. Picking my favorite body wash, exfoliating with my fruity scrub, and having the rest of my products all in one space makes it too easy and organized for me. It really is a let down that all my products are organized to my liking and just what I like.
I don't do lonely well.
When winding down, picking a show is the hardest part. Will it be Dateline or something lighter like Impractical Jokers? I have so many options to choose from, what will I do with myself?
I don't do lonely well.
The thing that disappoints me the most is how protective I am over my mental space. I am able to give myself all the love that I deserve and focus on my emotions without having someone else possibly disrupt my peace.
I don't do lonely well.