Dear Qulea,
This is most likely your future self talking to you. I have traveled through space and time (you know doggone well I haven't) to see you at your most present form. I already know you have overcome so much in your life. Like girl, the fact that both of your parents passed before you finished high school and you're still pushing? Girl, I am so proud of you. Especially now that you are always trying to figure out your next step and where you're going to be because trying to figure out housing last minute will make you grey early.
You don't fully plan your life and when you do, there are several obstacles either blocking or taking you a different but better course. You were planning to go to vet school after graduation, then you were just going to go to grad school to get your Master's in Fine Arts, and now you're not only going to grad school to get a Masters and a Ph.D., but you're doing research along the way.
You go girl. I know I never would have thought that you would do something like that. You're keeping up with your classes and you're learning to push out the negativity that wants to take refuge in your life. Whenever you get the chance, I need you to look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are proud of who you are and to pat yourself on the back.
Like you will make it. You will go far even if I have to materialize somewhere in your subconscious and mentally beat the sense into you. You have to stop being so critical of yourself and your abilities. If you thought you weren't as good as you thought you were then you wouldn't have made it this far.
Keep pushing sis, you got this!