Here goes nothin'

My life took a stomach flop to the ground

When the anxiety in my mind was the only sound

Impossible to explain, impossible to be

I want to finish the semester, but I fear I have to leave

Leaving may be my only choice

I've never felt this perplexed, so empty of a voice

Everyday, control of my own brain fades

My life direction is now surrounded by barricades

Winter break comes, perhaps things will now turn around

I have a break from classes, I can stay on the ground

No more mandatory heights (for now), no more anxiety.

Although, I deep down feel very divided from society.

For now, I guess alcohol can keep me standing.

Even though the mental predicament I'm now in is only expanding.

Don't acknowledge the pain, don't let it win

Daily life is getting more and more difficult, composure is wearing thin.

The coming semester will be on all high floors

My anxiety of which is like a cold sore on your mouth you can't ignore

I've never experienced apprehension like this

Wearing emotions on my sleeve, the apprehension is impossible to miss.

Everybody knows I'm very worried, just not to the extent of which.

Never have I wanted so badly but to turn off my pain with the flick of a switch.

When the anxiety in my mind was the only sound

Impossible to explain, impossible to be

In five months, in my hands, will I hold a degree?