Here you are again, feeling worn down and overcome with the flooding sense of defeat. Sometimes you wish a dramatic miracle would work it's way into your life and skyrocket you to your end goal, but unfortunately life doesn't work that way. Goals are achieved through effort, climbs take time and meticulous care. Results of your hard work may not be evident, but the routine will slowly take you toward your end goal.
When you're stuck in a place of monotony, it is too easy to wave your white flag. From personal experience, I can say I understand how pointless your efforts feel and how it feels like your whole being is screaming for a break. It's then you must push through. Passions are worth pursuing no matter how difficult it becomes. Great things take time and quality work requires your full dedication. Though it may seem like things will never change and your big "aha" moment is never coming, it is.
Faith must drive you forward when you're the most exhausted and drained from seemingly pointless effort after effort. You never know when your moment is coming, it could be just around the corner. Face Mondays with big pots of coffee and the belief your time is now and there is no choice but to move forward because it's worth it. Every sleepless night spent overthinking, beating yourself up, and pulling your hair out will seem minuscule when you're living out your dream to the fullest capacity.
Each successful person has a background of struggle and failure, so think of the defeat as just one more precedent to your success story. Keep dreaming wild dreams when it's the most difficult, drag your weary self out of bed and hustle toward the life you want, and force the positive attitude of grace and positivity because you deserve to be kind to yourself in the midst of disappointments. The key to your success is right in front of you, you just haven't discovered it yet. The miracle you crave is on its way, so have faith things will work out. Let defeat slide off of you and into your "done with it" bin, because you're not defeated, you never truly are. There will always be fight left within you, even if you have to dig for it. So grab your spiritual shovel and dig until you've worked yourself right out of defeat's ugly grasp.