I feel low, drain, sad all the above

My mind is mush, thoughts is just wind between my ears

Only pain I can think of, hurt is what I feel,

I cry myself to sleep so many nights, only to wake up an realize how peaceful it felt.

I wonder why I feel so much pain, why my heart is still hurting? I can only think about my sleepless nights, you was only a phone call away. I thought those call would never end, but they did, I’m left tear stain face, sleepless night and fear of being alone.

This pain is so much! But really I just cry.

I cry for all the hopes of thinking forever would still be here, always would be now.

But now I lay alone, and my hopes went where ever.

Sleepless in pain, tears fall, no one the wipe them, only the soil where I grow this endless pain.