An Open Response To "I Feel Like I’m The Only One Not Enjoying College" | The Odyssey Online
Start writing a post
Politics and Activism

An Open Response To "I Feel Like I’m The Only One Not Enjoying College"

A response.

20
An Open Response To "I Feel Like I’m The Only One Not Enjoying College"

The hardest part of starting my freshman year at college was moving away from all my friends. I was so used to seeing these people five days a week for eight hours at a time and going separate ways just felt wrong. Friends I’ve had since kindergarten, who were ten minutes away from my house, were suddenly hours and hours away.

Your friends are scared to lose you, too. I know.

We all feel like we're going through the motions.

All of my friends take the maximum amount of classes they're allowed. Every class is a heavy workload. We have speeches to give, presentations to organize, PowerPoint slides to design, art projects to finish, film shorts to edit, statistics to graph and rehearsals to attend, just like you. We're all busy. Welcome to college. Welcome to adulthood.

College is not all windows-down, music-blasting 1 a.m. runs to McDonalds. It's not all cheap vodka and hookups and togas and fairy lights and letters and t-shirts. College is those things, but college is biting your nails, college is worrying if your friend is downing a bit too much of that cheap vodka every night, college is stresses and uncertainty, anxieties, and responsibilities.

Friends who cheated on their partners. Partners who cheated on my friends. Friends dealing with breakups. Friends who need to break up because their relationships are toxic. Friends who need to break up because their relationships are abusive. Friends with eating disorders. Friends in mental hospitals. Friends in medical hospitals. Friends who got kicked out of their homes, or didn't want to go back to their homes. Friends dealing with death. Friends dealing with divorce. Friends scared they'd start looking at their razors as more than a device for shaving again. Friends wondering how they're going to pay for the next semester of college. And yet, here I am, saying "friends" as if to distance myself from the matter that all of these things are happening in my own life, too.

The couch you see normally littered with Taco Bell sauce packets and pizza boxes on Snapchat? Don't be confused. My shirt has been soaked with tears holding shaking bodies at 3 a.m. on that couch. My hands have gripped hands that once attempted suicide and speak fearfully of it again on that couch. That couch became an inn for friends who were scared of what they might do if they were alone. That couch became a nursing bed of cough drop wrappers, blankets, puke buckets, and glasses of water, which any roommate, at any time, would be willing to replenish. The highlight reel you saw was a couch that served a social conference convention by day and a therapy room by night.

Friends who had not felt happy, much less, a semblance of consistent contentedness in months. As a friend and Human Being, my utmost desire is for people to be happy. Anything less is selfish.


I've always been a bit of a contortionist when it comes to my schedule, bending over backwards and spreading myself as thin as I can, until my bones pop and I reach just won't stretch any further. And the insomnia comes crashing down, striking my temples with a shimmering, dizzying daze. The pulse in my heart gets excited over nothing and I'm trying not to retch up stomach acid from the breakfast I didn't eat (no time) before I can make it to my bed and collapse, hopefully for an hour (possibly two) for a nap, bringing my grand total of hours asleep to a whopping 5.


This article is in response to "I Feel Like I'm The Only One Not Enjoying College" and anyone else, commuter or otherwise, who may be feeling this way. It is not meant to bash or libel, but simply, to offer a flipped perspective.


Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
Relationships

10 Facts All People In A Large Family Can Confirm During The Holiday Season

The holiday season can be the best and most stressful time of the year, especially when more people are involved.

1201
kids jumping

The holidays are full of lights, sweets, sweaters, and your favorite movies. There's nothing quite like this period from the beginning of December through January. Christmas, Hanukkah, and New Years. The fun of it all.

I don't know about you but with my large Italian family something is always going on during this season. It can be the most wonderful time of the year while also being the most hectic. These are a few things you know if your family is anything like mine during this time.

Keep Reading...Show less
10 things that happen the second Thanksgiving is over
reference.com

To those who celebrate, you just spent an entire day cooking an elaborate meal with all of your favorite foods. You probably ate your body weight in pumpkin pie and mashed potatoes. What happens now? Oh yea, Christmas. It’s time to take out all of the decorations and Christmas themed things that have been sitting in the attic since last year; it’s time to make a reappearance. So, here are 10 things that happen the second Thanksgiving is over.

Keep Reading...Show less
Adulting

18 Things I Want To Do Now That I'm 18

I'm technically an adult, so I'm legally required to live a little, right?

4430
Happy Birthday Cake

For the entirety of my high school career, I was always seen as the goody-two-shoes. I never got in trouble with a teacher, I kept stellar grades, and when I wasn't doing extracurricular activities, I was at home studying. Even when I did go out, it was usually with a bunch of fellow band geeks. The night would end before 11:00 PM and the only controversial activity would be a fight based on who unfairly won a round of Apples-to-Apples when someone else clearly had a better card (I promise I'm not still holding a grudge).

Now that I'm officially an adult, I want to pursue some new things. I want to experience life in a way that I never allowed myself to do prior to entering college. These are the years that I'm supposed to embark on a journey of self-discovery, so what better way to do that than to create a bucket list?

Keep Reading...Show less
Featured

10 Life Lessons from Christmas Classics

The holiday classics that shaped my life

2722
10 Life Lessons from Christmas Classics
Flickr

The holiday season is full of stress, debt, and forced conversation. While we rush through the month of December, it's important to take a step back and enjoy the moments before they're gone. Most families love to watch Christmas movies, but these beloved films provide more than entertainment. Here are 10 life lessons that I've learned from the holiday classics we watch every year.

Keep Reading...Show less
Featured

15 Mind-Bending Riddles

Hopefully they will make you laugh.

202100
 Ilistrated image of the planet and images of questions
StableDiffusion

I've been super busy lately with school work, studying, etc. Besides the fact that I do nothing but AP chemistry and AP economics, I constantly think of stupid questions that are almost impossible to answer. So, maybe you could answer them for me, and if not then we can both wonder what the answers to these 15 questions could be.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments