To the people who have chosen to turn their backs on me

I’ve been told I’m a very deep person but that’s what makes me so different from the rest of the world because I’m not afraid to feel things in ways many people can’t even imagine to feel. So there is something I would like to say to all the people who once came into my life and swore they’d never leave or hurt me. First off I hold no resent or grudge because I’ve learned that people are meant to come in and out of your life and as hard as that may be to grasp that’s just how life is. I’ve learned to forgive those people, and I have accepted that certain things just aren’t meant to be forever. You can’t force people to be a part of your life if they chose to walk away what are you going do? Umm… I say nothing but keep your best foot forward we are all on our own journey in life people change in many ways whether it’s for better or for worse.

Something I know a lot of you can relate to is the friend/friends who are your friends at their convenience, well let me tell you don’t be a fool those aren’t your real friends and you should never let anyone take advantage of you that way. The other thing is those “close friends” that follow you and vice versa on social media then suddenly unfollow you, then after sometime they want to add you again….UMM.. SERIOUSLY?!!

I don’t know about you, but I CAN’T DEAL!! IF ANYTHING ANNOYS ME MOST IS WHEN THEY DO JUST THAT! It can be friends or maybe even your own family too, but that’s the sad truth. Well, all I have to say to people like that is sorry but not sorry! First of it’s your loss not mine, just because life isn’t going the way you thought it would be for yourself doesn’t mean you get to belittle others, or maybe you’re going through a phase you don’t even understand yourself and your embarrassed because it may be things you always say you wouldn’t do, or simple I’ve pissed you off whatever the reason may be. Don’t expect me to add you back when you get over yourself. That’s just me being real I’ve done nothing but be your friend and have been 100% honest with you and don’t even get me started I have always been there whenever you needed and ear to listen or even just a hug!

It’s without a doubt the nicest people can never win it hurts to even say but it’s true we always come last to everyone we are the ones people look past but that’s okay I understand that’s just how cruel life can be for being too nice. I can at least walk away with my head held high because I don’t consider myself mean, I know for a fact that my whole life I’ve wanted nothing more but to see people in my life happy not in a chicle kind of way but genuinely.

I know life is hard for all of us including myself but its okay I’m up for the ride and so should you. Some of you may say oh well your alone you don’t have to worry about anything but little do you know that to be true. I do have a lot to worry about because I’m on my own. It’s so easy for you to say that because you think it’s hard on you having to juggle between work, your husband and the kids or whatever the case may be. Well yea I don’t have kids or a husband or a battle with a crazy baby daddy but I struggle too just because I don’t have what you do doesn’t make my life so much easier than yours, if you only knew how much pressure I’m under to get things done for myself you would never think like that again!.. That’s no excuse for you to stop being my friend either though... but like I’ve said that’s just how life is, It’s hard out here but in order to survive you must strive to get to where you want to be.

I’m not here to make anyone uncomfortable I just want to let you know that my life isn’t perfect and it never will be because perfection doesn’t exist not for me not for anyone. I just want to finish saying to all of the people that have chosen to walk away well I wish you nothing but the best from here on out. This is just goes to show that not everyone will stick around forever so be aware down the line you’ll realize who your real friends really are.

That’s why sometimes I’m better off keeping my circle small because not everyone gets me and that’s okay I don’t expect anyone to get me anymore but know this, if you’re someone who can relate to this well you’re not alone. Welcome to my world is all I can say!