I thought you were something wonderful.
We had moments that seemed so genuine.
Something I saw in you, I thought I could trust.
I know you ended up being someone I couldn’t count on.
Someone that I can’t even call my friend.

I don't know why you left, and I probably never will.
I don't know when or if I'll ever see you again.
Just know
It made me question everything about myself – when you disappeared.
Especially, after telling you my deepest insecurities.

I opened my deepest parts without any pause for consequence.

Then you kissed me.

I laid out my feelings without any expectations.
When you told me how you felt, I swear something came alive I thought for sure was dead.
After so much pain, you were the rainbow after the storm.

I don’t know what happened exactly.
I'm not sure how things started or why it stopped.
I don’t even know why it bothered me that whatever it was – it ended.

Thank you for coming across as something I thought I always wanted – someone I always wanted.
Thank you for treating me with respect.
Thank you for caring about me when I needed someone to vent to.
Thank you for opening my eyes that someone like you exists.
Even though all of it was a lie.

My heart has now been mended and I'm on to bigger and better things.
Maybe one day you'll have the courage to speak to me, but if not I know I'll be ok.
So this is my goodbye to the ghost I thought I knew.